little people

little people- little thoughts- little waves and little pots.  hoping the madness in my mind will silence itself today without clouding my sunny skies to gray- sweet smells and sweet tales of longing days to come- memories of beautiful passed me by to settle down in the bottom of a rye and coke. sitting calmly among the oaks i realize how nature is anything but still here- the squirrels bark and chase each other- the acorns crack and pop as they fall from their tree top roosts and the leaf rain is like crumpled paper falling through the sky.  like wishing on a star i'm seeing the sky through the canopy of leaves and wishing on the blue above- wishing for the make-believe world i fantasize about to become my reality.  sometimes i'm so close- with our thoughts we make the world- and then my thoughts go haywire and i'm feeding a raging fire- haven't we been here before- on this train rambling through the country side blowing smoke and making noise while barreling down the tracks...

unknown depths

shadows of unknown answers to unnecessary questions nibble at my mind creating disturbances that ripple through my being.  fighting to be still but in that fight i create more waves of doubt.  knowing the trick~ just simply breathe and let it be, but years of conditioning, of being taught to move, of creating chaos in my own wake makes this a difficult challenge.  there is a chasm of difference between knowing and doing.  Trying is a form of Doing but the shift in perspective between the two is almost immeasurable.  if you think you're Trying you allow room for failure- when you know that in that attempt you are Doing- you create the circumstances for success.  This is my vow for today:  To Do~ to Be~ to find the stillness that carries inner calm and to pour my love into my soul, fill my heart and let it overflow out into the world with the knowledge that as my cup pours over i'll have it returned ~ soaking me in quenching emotion.