definitions

I am not defined by anything stationary- my definition is mutable, transitory, fluid- I am a collection of moments, memories and love- I am NOT a position, title or job, I am NOT a paycheck, or a projection of your fears and experiences; altho I recognize that is how people relate and connect in most contexts- I am not a success story tho I've had successes and I'm not a failure tho I've failed a time or two- I'm more! I'm a collection of stories, of words, of rhythms and rhymes and good times and bad- I'm a soft, silky body with an athletes attitude and a survivors spirit!  I'm a series of beautiful contradictions that confuse and delight.  I need my fix of these little moments that drive me insane and make me lose control to keep me sane and to keep life from getting too mundane.  I crave affection and protection, to be taken care of while being fiercely independent.  a little girl who loves her daddy and fights him on every point- a loving mommy that knows how to be a woman when appropriate and won't back down from a challenge.  i'm difficult and turbulent but silly and loving- I'm original and unique- I'm a beautiful monster and might just bite if you aren't polite and forget your manners.  I am what i am and i'm proud to be- i'm proud of my fuzzy lines and insecurities, of my strength and my courage when i find it at the bottom of the pit in my gut.  I'm proud of my convictions even when absurd.  I'm proud that my mind is open and that my life is complicated- I'm proud that my will is strong and that I am humble and that the world is mine to explore and shape and mold to make it how i like.  I stand where i stand and I'm good with it- know me- share with me- love me if you dare but do not judge and do not frown in my presence and do not define me by the things that you see because that won't do me any justice at all- just let me BE and stand beside me on this journey.