having so much to say and no words to express- having so much in my head and none of it makes sense. having a heart full of goo that leads to distress- why do things get complicated- why do they go wrong? I remember a time when my feelings were mine and they came from my heart and nothing could come between us or tear us apart and then there we were in two different places and times and distances wondering how my thoughts became so loud and influenced by the words falling out of other's mouths. verbal vomit leaves sticky messes and i'm tired of the stench that lingers in the air after the fair. thinking too much leads me to feel like drinking but i gave that shit up at the attempt to get back inside my skin- to connect with the soft tissues that make me ME. falling in spirals that leave beautiful patterns in the sand. wanting to re-live the glory days when i was the star of my own show- the one in the middle of the chaos that was sure in her ways, her body, her moves and the stares of the crowd on the sidelines that wouldn't join her on the dance floor. a time when life was easy and things were clear- the horizon was laid out in front of us and we knew the only goal was getting to the next party where it was all about getting down and dirty in the middle of Detroit city- finding ruins off the beaten path that hosted our fun for the evening where we met fantastic people and danced till we couldn't hear- only feel- the beat that vibrated our being and forced movement from our feet. plugging in and re-connecting- feeling like me again- listening to old tunes that still sing to my soul and the message is true- I can't help myself when it comes to you- got no self control- i never had control but this beat has me lost in thought s of you- eyes so blue and arms so strong- there's nothing i can do- i'm a puddle at your mercy and i can't wait- if i hold you put your arms around me too- tonight my wish will come true- in the shadows i'll perch atop a speaker box pounding bass that leaves me happy. crazy dreams give birth to new ideas and the creative juices flow.
Listening to: I Can't Help Myself (sunfreakz remix) by Bellatrax
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