already gone

I said i needed change and here i sit doing the same ol shit- i'm already gone screams from the speakers and i feel the meaning is the theme of my lives- current and past but not my future- i took the bull by the horns and now i'm wondering what will be... fear is the death of love- fear is the lack of love- fear will not rule me and be my governing god- the force by which my choices are made and carried out. so i guess this is official cougar training but feeling more like a mouse... perhaps like a spider in a web. I will sit and watch and wait... plenty of fish in the sea they say and here i mix my metaphors... poetic soul and justified in longing- it is what it is ... just hope that it brings sun to my gloomy tummy grumbling days. High hopes like the ant and the rubber tree plant- a vision from days gone by and from a thing that makes me smile. smiles light the world and make a brighter place. my fingers are crossed that for a long time to come i'll have inspiration to keep on smiling.