heard a great line in a song today that had me whisked away and wishing for a future flower under the sun where the little ones can play all day- it said "kiss you between the ears" and I realized that is what i've been missing all these years- intellectual sex is the foundation of my determination to be independent and wise- I want it all or nothing at all and if you can't meet me in my mind, my soul, my heart then why should I try to give you any other part- If you want me like your eyes say then learn to play the game this way- without these basic rules i'd be stuck with the loser who drools, and i don't mean the occasional slobber- i mean the man without a thought in his head and could pass for dead- been there and had that, not gonna repeat it. I understand that the caveman's have a place in this world-my world, however, is not like the reality perceived by the masses- it's an intimate place where we all are whispers thru ash in the air and our thoughts hang in our hair for all to see and experience. no secrets told and no lies are left hidden where others might stumble into trouble because of it- I see the colors in the music and hear the beats in the paintings- I want you all to know me as I know me- to know my sadness and insecurities and understand that i'm not the bitch i can come across as- i'm just misunderstood. like an echo in a parking garage, like a ghost in the tv when the cable is out- just a shadow in the corner, when the mood strikes then it all changes- a ball of light, the bass in the drum, the dancer in the middle of the floor lost in the beat and can't come up for air or she might drown- this is my town- the place i call home- it's not on any map you'll find for it lives in the corners of my mind. It's a happy little place most times and you are welcome to visit for a spell-but understand that the mood can change quickly and the lands can too, but the company is always glad to have you.

listened to "The Bird and The Worm" by Owl City